Wheeling with new wheels

I feel like I shouldn't have even said anything about my SSDI. The Boy Scouts Director asked me if I wanted to work or just wanted to volunteer. How could I not want to work? I was concerned that the man would think that I'm unmotivated. Also collecting from the government sends a horrible message about me. I would l love to free myself altogether. I'd never get SSDI back if I needed it although my disability is congenital. I just got 2 packets of information I am obligated to complete about my job history-I just did that! That makes three documents they are requesting; I think they are really making it extra hard.